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Anxiously Yours - Entry 2

 It’s morning already and I can hear my heart pounding against my eardrums. Is it normal? I don’t know, I won’t ever know either because that would require me to let another soul know what am I going through and that’s not gonna happen anytime soon. I feel this weird thing in my chest like someone is scraping away flesh using a grater and like there is no one point where it hurts, it does not even hurt in the first place. It just feels hollow and empty and fucking weird. I do not know if it is my poor vocabulary or they have not put enough words out there to describe what I feel inside me. I want this to fucking stop. Take deep breaths they say. Do this do that. Meditate and shit but those things are mostly said by people who are already fine and not feeling fucked up inside like I do.


I have been drinking water since yesterday. Lots of water. Relatively lots of water. I don’t drink much water otherwise. A glass in a day maybe. Just hoping the water cleanses me and wash down whatever this thing stuck to me is. *fingers crossed*. Plus there are a lot of benefits of drinking water like you can go for pee multiple timings and burn some calories. Also, skin looks good but that’s a long-term result, and not sure if this is going to happen for a long time. Let’s see. 

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